If there is one thing that I am sure has been passed down from generation to generation in my family, it is the gift of worrying. Fine, let me not exaggerate, I’m absolutely that the gift of worrying exists in the last two generations on my mother’s side of the family.
Therefore, I am a degree-certified worrier.
Let me tell you how this works. I will worry about something that happened yesterday, this morning, an hour ago, two seconds ago- and anything that might happen tomorrow.
The thing about worriers is we often have active imaginations, so once we begin, there is an endless trail of things that might, could, maybe, possibly, sometime, somehow happen.
The month of June was my season.
Everything that could go wrong from January begun, waited until June. I’m juggling classes, work, planning a wedding, a new addition to my household (that can be a really stressful time, if you are an introvert like I am), plus, plus, plus.
I really felt like I was a push away from the Jenga bricks collapsing.
But this is why it is important to record God’s promises to you.
You will keep him in perfect peace,
Whose mind is stayed on You,
Because he trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3
God’s reminder was simple.
Deonne, you can have perfect peace. Trust, focus on me- I will keep you in perfect peace.
But being the Deonne that I am, I start to worry that I am not staying or trusting enough.
But scratch that, here’s where the story gets better.
Look at the words a little closer
To Keep – ‘naw-tsar’: means to guard, protect, maintain or preserve
Peace- ‘shâlôm’ means safe, well, happy.
Stayed- sâmak means prop, lean, take hold of, bear up
trust- bâṭach means confidence, hope, refuge
What God was really saying was he wouldn’t keep the storms away or even prevent the storms from hitting me. But he promised to maintain my happiness, my sanity, to keep me well and safe even while the storm is in full hurricane mode and trees are being uprooted and smashing me several times in the face.
Jesus will ensure that my sanity is preserved, that I am well and safe, if I allow my self to lean on him, be propped up by him and look to him as my hope.
What a wonderful God!
I’m looking forward to that perfect peace!